Tuesday, 29 December 2009

When Ideas Aren't Best Thought Out..

I am currently waiting on weigh in sometime next week to start the diet.. So why dont I start it now? It is daft, that I need an exact point in time to commence something that I could start today & feel better in a couple of days.. the logic is blinding.

And the funny thing is I am sick of eating crappy foods, I just don't feel it anymore. I am at that point now where my body is physically to used to the junk food.. where the points between junk food & comfort correspond & healthy eating is just a blur.

I could start the weightwatchers tomorrow with the greatest of ease, but I am waiting for a time when I can go to a weigh in.  Maybe it is the point of finding out how much I have inhaled which is stopping me from dieting now, to shock my subconscious into realising what damage I have done. & by not dieting now I have an accurate representation of the scale of destruction my falling off the wagon has done, maybe.

Or maybe it is that I am scared.

Either way, next weigh in I am going & 2010 is going to be the year I get to goal.  I have too much to look good for that I cannot be a fatty.  Vanity? Oh hell yes!

Monday, 28 December 2009

What Manner Of Time & Space Is This?

Where am I? & for that matter, where have I been?!

Oh it feels an age since I have been here & I have missed it too.. So allow me to state that I am okay & just been too busy, but am getting things on track again x

I managed in November to get to 14 stone 10.5lbs, from 20 stone 8lbs, but have epically failed & been off track for what seems like aeons ago.

But am going to go to the New Year meeting & finally get this back on track, because boy! Am I feeling it now..  I feel grotty & bloated, but most of all I miss the implemented regime that helped me back on track.

I miss blogging, so am starting again to put down my thoughts & somehow make sense of this life..

It has been too long & I have missed you all x